Stroller Stampede

Good morning duckies! I hope you're having a gorgeous day today because if you're not...why are you wasting precious moments?! This is your life and you have to be the star: you can't be the supporting actor/actress of your own life!

Anywho, during my early morning commute I was assaulted by a stroller. I was about to enter the train doors and to my right I saw a beautiful little Hispanic baby boy, wearing a SpongeBob baseball cap. He was simply adorable and he seemed to be enjoying his early morning stroller adventure. His parents on the other hand were vile.
His father had a Military buzz cut and was fiercely latching onto today's copy of the New York Post. He looked very stern. (If he were my father, I'd be scared to get him something cheap on Father's Day.) His mother--oh dear--was scary.
She wore this ill-fitting orange see-through butterfly camisole, with floppy denim Capri's and this out-of-this-fcuking-world black and silver skull studded belt. Not to mention it looked like her eyebrows were tattooed on.

They weren't sexy like some posh celebrity's...they were pencil-thin exaggerated and rainbow arched, which made her look even scarier.
As the train doors opened, the father practically darted--with the stroller in front of him--ahead of me, trying to snatch a seat. He started off going to the right, while I went to the left. Suddenly, the father swings the stroller to the left and knocks the back of my right heel with the front left wheel of the stroller, before I could plant my foot for the next step.

I almost fell on this old lady reading a book. However, I didn't think about what to do next, I just reacted. I grabbed onto the closest pole and regained my balance. I let out a heavy sigh and found a seat, far away from the odd couple.
These people looked like they could easily kill me, especially the father with his ex-Military vibes.

But what pissed me off was the train car was practically empty. This strange-looking and act couple nearly sprained my ankle for the sake of getting a seat in a nearly empty train car. If they're that hasty when seats are highly accessible I would hate to be around them during rush hour. (I could only imagine what they would do to me if I picked up the last Joseph & Lyman purple cotton V-Neck sweater at Bloomy's! LOL, that was a good day. I apologize for my randomness. I need to go shopping duckies.)
Other than that, my morning commute ran smoothly.

Speaking of smooth, I can't wait to get a haircut today. I can't remember the last time I got a haircut to be honest. OMG, I think it was in April...I got my last haircut in April. If you've seen me for the past few months, I've collected a healthy amount of growth. Honestly, I think I look like a Chia Pet.

Even though I love how soft my hair is when it grows this length, I don't miss the heat it collects in the summer lol. It's incredibly curly--no, I don't have nappy hair, ask Rockstar lol--and it's irksome to have to brush and comb it before I leave the house everyday.

OH, I have some awesome news!
Yesterday I realized this holiday weekend is going to be insane. Gabriella's birthday is this Sunday and I'm proud to say she parties like her older brother.
On Friday we're going to this amazing water park in the Poconos, Camel Beach.

Then on Saturday she and I are going Shark Cage Diving at this aquarium in Long Island
and then she's having friends sleepover to play Wii, laugh, party, and BBQ in the backyard.
She's going to be fifteen! Like wtf? I remember when she used to race around the house in her walker like it was yesterday.

In other news, last night I stumbled upon two phenomenal movies accidentally: "Hot Rod" and "The Nanny Diaries."

It came on TV around 10pm last night and I could not compose myself. When it was shown in theaters, the previews turned me off from the movie...and I regret that they did. If you like the digital shorts Andy Samberg creates on SNL then you're going to love this film. He is a comic mastermind. I'm definitely getting it on DVD!


"The Nanny Diaries" is a precious film and Scarlett Johansson does an amazing job in portraying her post-undergrad character. This film teaches its viewers a great lesson: never sell yourself short regardless of the circumstance. I would definitely watch this film again if it were to pop-up on cable. However, it's one of those touching movies that you wouldn't want to spend DVD money on. (No offense Emma McLaughlin and Nicola Kraus.)

Enough of that, let's get to some "Words of Wisdom."

"Never be embarrassed of yourself. Embarrassment is an emotional trap. It harbors within self-doubt and leads you to believe you're inadequate. Life is an unpredictable ball of adventure so don't beat yourself up when things get rough. Life life on purpose and rid yourself of shame."

Okay duckies, I don't know how but I am incredibly swamped at work today...

hence the super-short posting today.

I wish you the best of happiness this weekend. Happy Thursday! I love you. Stay true and tuned.

Live, love & Lady Gaga,
Gabriel Anderson

BlackBird is Missing

Good morning duckies. For those of you who follow me on Twitter (and if you don't today's the day to start lol) you may have seen some very dramatic tweets last night. Some duckies think I was fighting with my dear friend Graham last night, but that wasn't the case. Graham and I were trying to send links to each other last night via Twitter and FaceBook. It so happened that it looked like we were fighting because we were tweeting so fast and using direct references (and each others' names) in our tweets. Even though our tweets looked consequential, it was only a coincidence. I was fighting with Nick...not Graham.

Nick and I have had a two-year history and in these two years it looks like we ended up right where we started: our problems revolved around sex. It wasn't the lack of sex--God no--it was our insatiable desires for it. I've made peace with the fact that I'm a nymphomaniac years ago but Nick on the other hand has yet to love that part of himself.

Last night I realized that Nick is a liar. (Yes, I've told my fair share of lies but when it comes to direct questions I tell you the truth, tears and all.) We had this weird relationship where we were technically "together" and wouldn't get too involved with other men: sex was okay but love wasn't acceptable. I called Nick last night and asked him if he had sex recently and his reply was "No." He then asked me the same question and I told him "Yes." I went into detail, telling him the exact day and time while describing everything in vivid images.

Somehow after the story Nick "remembered" that he did have sex last week...which pissed me off. It wasn't just because he sad sex. It was the fact that he lied about not having sex until I confessed to having sex. In addition, it was with one of his friends that he has been habitually-sexually involved with! The thing that angered me the most was this wasn't the first time Nick has lied to me about having sex...and it so happened that he lied about not having sex with the same person he denied having sex with last night.
You simply can't have friends with benefits because it never works. The only benefit you'll get out of such a weird relationship is the benefit of sheer loneliness.

This was the last straw.

I know that I am not easy to love but it's not easy to love someone who doesn't love themselves either. Nick would always joke around saying "Yea, my parents know about us. They love you." and "Oh yea, I read your blog. It's my favorite." I just can't take the lies anymore. I know he was joking around but if you look at those statements closely, you'll know why I'm angry.

I am very open with my sexuality with my parents & friends and I have introduced them to boyfriends in the past. The fact that Nick would lie about something like that didn't hurt me at first but eventually it did. It hurt because I knew in my heart that I would eventually introduce Nick to my parents as my lover. It hurt because I really wanted Nick to read my blog (and not only when I mention him. He only read it when he was in the headlines). Nick basically mocked my true desires with his sick jokes.

I know for a fact that Nick would have never introduced me to his family and/or friends as his lover because Nick is so God-washed that he thinks his own sexuality is a crime. Plus, his family is full of super-Christians and his love for his family would have shadowed his "love" for me.

Come to think of it Nick was a SummerBoy in disguise. We met in the Summer, the beginning of my Sophomore year in college, and we see each other mainly in the Summer. He's basically a SummerBoy with clout...excuse me. A SummerBoy that had clout.

Yes, we had phenomenal times and fantastic sex but that doesn't equate to a healthy relationship, especially if one of the parties isn't taking it as serious as the other. I can't deal with his mockery of our relationship anymore. I'm not always the good guy but I know what's good for me and Nick is anything but a cure.

For the past few months, I have been conceptualizing living a married life with Nick. Now I see that vision was premature and too much to ask.
It's over Nick. I wish you the best in love, life, and happiness.

Duckies, I had to let him go. Even though it's rough to let go of someone you love dearly, you have to remember if you love something that doesn't respect you, you're only welcoming damage into your life.
I hate change when it comes to love but this was a change well deserved. Nick can watch from the sidelines...that's if I even let him close enough to talk to me again.

Anywho, I have a SummerBoy update.

I started talking to this goal-oriented hottie. His name is Joel. He's a good kid. He's 20, has an internship with an LGBT center downtown, incredibly cute, tall (6' 2" to be exact), and he seems level-headed. We're on the "getting to know each other" basis right now but I'll keep you posted. Oh and Joel hates liars...we have something in common lol.

Okay, okay. Let's get to some "Words of Wisdom."

"When making rules remember that you made them. Rules are boundaries created to govern and manipulate peace and control. When implementing rules with different parties, keep in mind that you are the law and others may interpret you--the law--in different ways."

Sadly, I left BlackBird, my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry Storm, at home today.

I think it was a sign from God though. Right before I ended things with Nick he pleaded to have lunch with me today. I kept declining the offer but I know if he sent me lovey-dovey text messages throughout the day, I probably wouldn't be able to function at work. And who passes up free lunch? LOL, I do today because I don't have my phone and I'm better than allowing myself to succumb to the likes of Nick again.
Divine intervention indeed.

Okay, I have to get to work duckies.
I wish you the best of happiness. I love you. Stay tuned and true.

Live, love & Lady Gaga,
Gabriel Anderson